The dictionary defines the word grieve as a verb – “to cause someone to feel sad, or unhappy”. I am feeling more than that. I am looking for a word to describe the gravity of how I am distressed now.
My 78-year old Mom fell and bumped her head almost four months ago. Upon her fall, her neurosurgeon ruled out the cranial operation. As the days passed by, her condition shows no signs of improvement. How it breaks my heart to see her health deteriorates each day. Her latest ( Computed Tomography ) or CT Scan reveals that the shadow (which is the original hemotoma) in her brain increases in size while the area where the good cells are found in her brain shrinks time after time…
One time, we prayed that she be given even just a few minutes of lucid moments so we , her children, can completely understand what she is saying…and it was granted. Thanks the good Lord for even just a few minutes, she was able to talk very intelligibly, very clearly so we easily understood her. Her words, ” My children , help me go up. I hope we will see each other there. Where, in heaven!”
Mother’s Day is fast approaching and am gonna tell the whole world right now that I love my Mom soooo much. If ever the most stressful event in our life comes, I hope we succeed in helping her go up…Lord, please show us the way!